Cancer was an amazing experience. I think I just heard a pin drop. It's true, I am thankful that I had cancer. There are so many things about my experience that are amazing....but let me share my favorites. Cancer stripped away all of the unnecessary baggage I had carried everyday of my life. Those bitter moments I was holding on to, the resentment I had towards some people...the forgiveness for those that had wronged me that I refused to give out....those things seemed so vitally important at one time, but when I was looking death in the face, they really didn't seem to matter anymore. It's amazing when you let go, how much sweeter life can be. Suddenly, I saw every thing clearer and realized how important I had made the unimportant and how insignificant I had made the significant. Cancer reminded me that I am very little but my God is very big. I knew God was going to heal my cancer using the amazing medical team and medication given me. You know what I discovered about my self? It was easy to trust....when I had cancer. However, I had trouble trusting when it came to a bill I didn't have money for....or trusting Him for wisdom. Amazing, right?! I limited God to only caring or being able to help in the big things....and trivialized my
everyday needs. I rushed around trying to fix, connive and maneuver rather than sitting, praying and trusting. Thirdly...the cancer diet was the best diet ever. Let me just tell you. If I had not had cancer I never would have been able to experience a size six again. It was glorious. I was sick....vomiting....exhausted...but girl, I looked AHmAzing!! I had RIBS! You could look at my face from every angle...and there was only 1 chin! My left thigh, didn't even know the right one existed! It really is sad that all I could muster up the energy to do was to get out of bed and go for my treatments....what a waste! If I had had the energy I would have been posting Instagram photos, Facebook Pics and Tweets of myself daily. Humph...oh well....it was great while it lasted. SO....I'm not a size 6 anymore....but I am thankful for one other thing....look back at the top of my post. I am thankful that I had cancer. That's right...had. Weeping may endure for the night.....but joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5
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